Tuesday, September 6, 2011 marks a deadline related to the filing of my habeas corpus application. It is by this date in which the prosecution and the trial attorney for my case have to respond to my habeas application. Based on their responses the Judge will decide if there is to be a hearing prior to forwarding my habeas application on to the Appellate Court. I have felt confident and prayed a lot on this. Although this weekend, coming up to the date, I allowed some fear to sneak in because of what happened previously in my trial, now 4 years ago (9/10/07).
I have been doing daily devotionals with a dear friend of mine. We are using Max Lucado's devotional book called "Grace For The Moment - Volume 1". Each day I find that day's devotional speaks to me in some way. Today the devotional could not have been louder! God is such a wonder! Here are the words from Max Lucado's book:
God Our Defender
Here is a big question. What is God doing when you are in a bind? When the lifeboat springs a leak? When the rip cord snaps? When the last penny is gone before the last bill is paid?...
I know what we are doing. Nibbling our nails like corn on the cob. Pacing floors. Taking pills......
But what does God do?...
He fights for us. He steps into the ring and points us to our corner and takes over. "Remain calm; the Lord will fight for you." (Exodus 14:14).
His job is to fight. Our job is to trust.
Just trust. Not direct. Or question....Our job is to pray and wait.
WOW!! How powerful and true. I have already proven that I couldn't win this case on my own. There is only ONE whom is all powerful and has the strength to fight evil. I needed this. Have faith! Pray and wait! I can do that. Nothing is gained by sitting in fear, in fact it diminishes my faith and trust. Once again, the lesson here is SURRENDER, allow God in my life, to do what He promises. I need to stop getting in His way.
I found another verse (one of many) that was so applicable and comforting:
1 Peter 3:12-14
For the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous and his ears are attentive to their prayer, but the face of the Lord is against those who do evil." Who is going to harm you if you are eager to do good? But even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed. "Do not fear what they fear; do not be frightened."
Source: Holy Bible, New International Version
My job...to pray and wait.......